I want to be with the LORD

Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones that you have broken rejoice.
Hide your face from my sins,
and blot out all my iniquities.
Create in me a clean heart, O God,
and renew a right spirit within me.
- Psalm 51:7-10

Resolutions of Jonathan Edwards: #54, #55

54. Whenever I hear anything spoken in conversation of any person, if I think it would be praiseworthy in me, Resolved to endeavor to imitate it. July 8, 1723.

55. Resolved, to endeavor to my utmost to act as I can think I should do, if I had already seen the happiness of heaven, and hell torments. July 8, 1723.

(Source: A Puritan's Mind)

Prayer with the faith in future grace

Lord, whatever it takes to be free from pride;
Whatever it takes to be free from lust;
Whatever it takes to be free from greed;
From anxiety, from self-reliance;
Whatever it takes to be a loving, humble, kind husband and good father;
Whatever it takes, do it to me.
Cancer?
Financial difficulty?
Church strife?
I won't prescribe, I will just take the pill.
Do you want holiness? Do you want to be loving, humble, free, radical enough to pray
Lord if it take that kind of experience in order to bring me to this kind of self-abandonment, use your own wise, good physician wisdom.

Therefore faith is future oriented and embraces a future governed by God's grace and therefore superior to the future promised by sin.

-- John Piper from Battling Unbelief Session 3 Is it biblical part 1 --

She calls me "husband."

She calls me "husband". Well, not really. She most often calls me by my name or "jagiya" which in Korean translates roughly to "dear", "honey", or "darling". But she knows I am her husband, and once we get used to it, the word, "husband" will easily flow out of her mouth when she refers to me, just maybe not when she calls me.

It was the 17th of April 2010, when God joined us together. In His infinite wisdom, He saw that it would be good to bring these two sinners together to represent the relationship between the Christ and His church as His bride. So I expect unceasing grace to overflow from Him to us, otherwise, we will surely and quickly fail to show Jesus through and within our marriage. So I am thankful. I thank God. And I thank my wife, who has been showing God's love and care towards me ever since we started dating.

It is a new chapter in my life, and it is exciting.

Soli Deo Gloria.