48. Resolved, constantly, with the utmost niceness and diligence, and the strictest scrutiny, to be looking into the state of my soul, that I may know whether I have truly an interest in Christ or no; that when I come to die, I may not have any negligence respecting this to repent of. May 26, 1723.
Looking into my own heart has been something that I started learning to do and is one of the most fearful thing to do. Yet, as I discover the dark secrets and sins in my own heart, I see love and grace of my Lord more intensely, for He knew all this from the beginning, and He made Himself nothing, and bore my sin, this filthy heart that I may be forgiven of my sins, receive His perfect righteousness, and reconciled with God our Father. O how glorious is His love?
(Source: A Puritan's Mind)